A lot of people think meditation is intimidating.  So I thought I’d share a reality check: my own experience this week.  Hint:  I did not fit in the picture above.

One of the first silent meditations I went to was in a Buddhist community in Baton Rouge.  It was 30 aching minutes, and I remember every ten minutes, the monk leading would ring a gong, or deep singing bowl or something, and say in a rhythmic, almost hypnotic way “Breathing in.  Breathing out.  This is how you meditate.” Read more

The fork in the road

Today, 10/29, is my four-year anniversary of my graduation from yoga teacher training.  (Thanks, Facebook, for the reminder, without which my dates would be fuzzy!)  It’s kind of a big deal, even today, though I don’t teach.

I’ve always believed that if I’m going to do something, I should do it well.  If I’m not going to do it well, then it’s probably not worth doing.  And I’m blessed that I am capable of doing most things well.    Sales being a notable exception. Read more


It is nearly comical that worry is my next post.  I started to write it weeks ago, right after finishing the first post on nasty little five-letter words.  It just wasn’t gelling.  So I put it down for a while, and shortly thereafter proceeded to worry.   The irony was that it took me a few weeks to notice what I was doing.  And then, because I’m human just like everyone else, it took some more time to stop.

What is worry?  Why do we do it?  What does it gain us?

In reverse order:
Because our mind needs something to chew on. Read more



I woke up today feeling something I haven’t felt in a very long time: Guilt.  A nasty, nearly useless little five letter word.

Maybe at one time in our less evolved society, guilt had a function of somehow strengthening social order to create better civilization, of keeping aberration to a minimum so that the fragile agreement of cooperative effort could succeed.  Maybe it still does, maybe it’s something we still need.  But I know, quite certainly, that we don’t need it at the level most of us experience it. Read more

There are too many benefits to meditation to count, to list, to be comprehensive, but learning how to live in a way in which I am present in each moment is one of my favorites.  Why?  Well, there are almost as many reasons as there are benefits to meditation, but one of my favorites is “Joy Bubbles.” Read more

Mirror View

It’s been a hot summer, the first really hot summer since I moved to North Carolina.  I finally got out for a walk around the lake behind my house the other day.  The lake is often a refuge for me – a place to get out of my head, see, smell and hear a little nature, and let the movement of my feet bring the rhythms of my mind back into a steady, even pace.

This last walk, I passed a woman wearing a t-shirt that said, “The whole world is a mirror of your life.”  As we moved into earshot range, I couldn’t help but overhear her briefly.  She clearly wasn’t happy, as she said something to the effect of “So here I am, completely on my own, again, like always… and none of them want to get involved”.

The contrast between the statement in her mouth and the statement on her shirt followed me all the way home. Read more

Ganesha is the elephant-headed Hindu deity, who is commonly known as the remover of obstacles.  He and his energy have been on my mind a lot in the last week.

More properly, Ganesha is the Lord of Obstacles; not only does he remove them, but he also creates them.  It is this aspect of Ganesha’s energy that has captured my attention. Read more

Sometime last October, in general conjunction with my new year’s intention setting, I threw a wild, loud promise to the universe that I would listen to my inner voice, my voice of instinct.  Listening is two-fold – not only is it hearing something, it is also responding to what is heard.  I can no longer remember whether this was before or after I set my intention for the year, but here is the scene:

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I have fungus gnats on my houseplants.  I acquired them when I decided to be creative and bring in some moss from outside for a potted arrangement. The moss is long gone, but the flies have taken residency in my other houseplants.  So as I sit in front of my monitors, for weeks now, I see them fly by, I reach out and try to catch (and kill) them.  Every time I do this, I have a tiny stab of guilt because I know that I am taking the life of a living thing.

A few weeks ago, as I was waiting to turn out of a parking lot, I saw a beetle-like insect trucking it across the road.  He wasn’t moving in a straight line, almost as if he was uncertain of his path, but he was moving fast!  And then a car drove by and, wham! smush!, his little life gone instantly.
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Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
* misquoted Thoreau

This (mis)quote is on the cover of the journal I have used for the last six months or so.  Whenever I come to the end of a journal, I use it as an opportunity to review the span of time it covered.  This time, as I reflected on everything I have either accomplished or set in motion during this span, I was actually surprised by how many core-shaking changes I have made in such a short time.  And I wondered, did this quote, which I have consciously or unconsciously read nearly every day for the last half of a year, make an impact? Read more